Category Archives: motherhood

Sons.

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“She lights a cigarette, leans against the counter and watches her son eat. This will be his last year in children’s sizes. He has his father’s head, his father’s way of eating steadily, neatly, the working of the jaw, the set of the shoulder and something about the eyes – though her son’s are brown – the same long lashes, and that open quality, the focused unawareness that is masculine innocence. She can almost see the face of the man emerging from that of the boy. Her gaze is a thing of substance. Between a mother’s eyes and her son’s face, there is not air. There is something invisible and invincible. Even though – or because – he will go out into the world, she will never lose her passion to protect him. Girls are different. They know more. And they don’t leave you.” –Ann Marie MacDonald, The Way the Crow Flies

Four.

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My first baby is four years old today. How did we get here so quickly?

At the age of four, reading continues to be Luca’s favorite activity. He reads everything, everywhere. The other day he was grocery shopping with Charlie and was quite upset when they passed the frozen section and Charlie didn’t pick up our routine Eggo waffles (lol). Charlie tried to explain that we already had some at home, but sometimes there is just no reasoning with a toddler preschooler. To keep the peace, Charlie placed a box in the cart temporarily and returned it once Luca was distracted. Once they paid, Luca asked for the receipt and read each item on it, out loud. After reading the list twice, he looks up at Charlie and exclaims, “Daaadeee! But where is Eggo waffles?!” Ha! We can’t get anything past this one.

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In these past four years I’ve watched Luca grow into the most beautiful being. He’s always had such a thirst for learning and I’m constantly in awe of how quickly he is able to pick things up. He can be a stubborn one (mostly around dinner time – but hey, at least he’s consistent?) and still has the same infectious laugh he had when he was just a few months old. Luca is a sensitive little guy and sometimes that translates into more emotional outbursts in a day, than I’d like. That being said, I wouldn’t change his sensitivity for anything because that is what makes him the gentle soul he is. He takes such good care of everything and everyone around him and is the most affectionate little person I know. I can literally feel the love bursting from his heart when I hold him close. I’m so proud of him.

Luca, my love, happy 4th birthday! I love you, so very much.

Daughter.

Our Gia Ysabela is six weeks old today. 
Our daughter. I kind of love saying that.



Gia is a sweet one, let me tell you. And alert! She’s like a little lady, watching everything around her, taking it all in with those big eyes of hers. Just this week she’s started to give us real smiles and coos which means the real fun can now begin 🙂

I’m finding the transition this time around to be slightly easier than the last. It could be due to Gia’s calm temperament (or the fact that I’m much calmer this third time around) but nonetheless, we seem to be settling in quite nice around here. Luca is just smitten with her, giving her kisses all day long. Julian, who maybe wasn’t as welcoming at first (ha!), now loves to touch her, look up at us and smile his biggest smile. Of course, there are challenging times (like when they all cry at once!), but that doesn’t happen often. Not with three children under the age of four. Nope, not often at all 😉

Gia, my sweet baby girl, you’ve made the four of us so happy already. And this is just the beginning! I feel so lucky to call you and your brothers my own. I’m grateful to have had the chance to do this again, to bring another healthy, beautiful and loved child into this world. We love you Gia bug.

xo N

one.

This year went by far too quickly. This boy is growing, far too quickly. It’s bittersweet, as any parent knows. I’m so thankful that he is healthy and thriving. So thankful. But there is always a tiny part of me that wishes I could freeze time. Just keep him my baby for a little while longer. I’m very attached to this cuddle bug 😉

I never imagined a baby could be so determined and fearless! It’s amazing to watch. And hilarious. And sometimes scary. He certainly keeps me on my toes, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I hope he is always this curious, determined and fearless. I have a good feeling he will be 🙂

And so, happy 1st birthday my beautiful Julian. You are so special to me and our family. This past year with you has been beyond incredible and I can’t wait for the adventures this next one brings. xo

three.

Our beautiful Luca turns three years old Sunday. I don’t know what is about this birthday, but its got me all sorts of emotional. Time moves so quickly and no matter how present you try to remain, you can never beat it…


Most of my personal entries on this blog are about my boys. While this certainly isn’t a “mommy blog” (and never will be), it is a space where I can share some of the things that are inspiring me. During these past three years, nothing has inspired me as much as this boy. It wasn’t until I had Luca that I started to write about things that made me happy, rather than what wasn’t. Celebrating even the smallest things have brought a positivity in my life that didn’t exist before. He has taught me that the most ordinary moments can be the most beautiful. He has inspired me to work harder at realizing my dreams, to be an example to look to in case he ever feels stuck. But most importantly, he has inspired me to love stronger.

I have cherished these past three years with Luca more than any time in my life. Our little intellect, his head always buried in some sort of book 🙂 Such a sweet, affectionate and curious soul. I’m so proud to be his mom. Happy birthday my sweet boy. We love you so much. 


xo N